I Cheated

So, here I was ten pounds down in my first week of being on HCG and I cheated. I feel so upset with myself, but I'm not coming down to hard on myself either. I gained two pounds back yesterday after having at it at a Mexican restaurant. I ordered a chimichanga filled with beans and shredded beef. I don't even like beans, but I swear it was the best meal I'd had in weeks! I also drank a tea with sweetener and I had peach flavored water (x2). I had a bite of guacomole as well. I broke all of the rules and I learned a valuable lesson. It just is NOT worth it. Two pounds in one day??? I can't believe that I ruined my progress. The thing is, the hunger has substatially subsided, and I ate anyway. I now understand how important staying on protocol is and why one moment of satisfaction can sabotage many more moments of happiness. My willpower is far more stronger now. I know I can do this. The temptation all around me isn't as rewarding as my goal. 145lbs. Not a size 2 or 120lbs, but a real woman weight for someone with curves. I not only can do this, I will do this. Determined.

Starting Weight - 202
Current Weight - 194
Goal Weight - 145
Pounds Lost - 8